It's literally drowning me.
I love writing. So much. I want to get better and to get better . . . you have to write more and spend your time doing it.
I can't write and do my medical stuff.
I'm taking EMT right now at MATC and I love it!
After the class, if I pass the state test, I can work in the emergency room.
While doing that I want to write. But both takes time.
I could take both. Get degrees in both my passions.
But I'm going to kill myself and is it really what I am suppose to do.
I have to choose.
But how do you choose between your two loves?
How do you choose between the two things that make you happy?
I could be a nurse who writes. Or a writer who does nursing on the side. Or I could be a nurse who likes to write. . . .
I don't know. I want both. So badly.
I want to write a book. I want people to read my writings and say "Wow!" But to do that I need a degree in writing. I need to get better.
I want to help people. I want to comfort them. Cry with them. Empathize with them. I want to heal. I feel this is my calling. To do that I need a nursing degree.
What to do, what to do?